The Backwards Motion.

My Mood:

Well, just a recap of everything that has happened today.

Mabinogi:

Well.. Mabinogi was pretty okay. Weaving day was a little hectic with the whole gathering going on today. I mean, I lived through that so nothing really too big. However, toward the end.. my Guild Leader 'made' me take part in our.. "Tactics Lessons". It was pretty much horrible. Yeah, the run went smoothly and all.. but it was completely boring. I don't really want to take part in something like it again because really.. it draws no interest to me, so therefor it just concludes to work. I don't really see why we have to be in a "formation". I thought we were doing well on guild runs before, just because you have to spend 280k on a guild run doesn't mean the whole guild is doing wrong.. maybe you need to think about what your doing and change it so that it doesn't apply to you anymore and you save money. Don't take it out on the rest of the guild.

Now, normally I wouldn't be this pissed off/depressed/upset about it.. but really when I am compared to people who have lower stats than I.. (And I mean extremely lower...) It makes me questions wither or not they actually think I'm worth something to the guild. I have high ranked skills, and I'm a good enough level for people not to have to watch me constantly so I don't die. Yes, I may be a mage, and yes I may be squishy.. but that doesn't mean I'm incapable. I really think that my Guild Leader needs to get that through is over sided ego head. To be honest I think the lesson was completely wasted, and not really worth anyones time beside getting good exp for the dungeon we were in. (Ciar Int for 4.) I guess the big concern was the money problem.. but as a Mage I am very powerful and almost one-shot everything in the dungeon... why should I be considered as 'worthless' in the eyes of my Guild Leader? Thats something I would like to know.

Some pictures I took on the "Tactics Lesson" run:

(Windmillers, then Archers, then Mages.)


(Example of it being 'Used'.)

So thats how today in Mabinogi went, and its still not over for another couple of hours or so.. I hope it goes okay, if not there will be another blog up here. =P

Real Life:

Nothing really bad to say about my real life stuff. Today was pretty okay. No complaints. I didn't fight with my mom today and i really only talked to Lizz today. I spoke with Ange, but that was over the computer and nothing too exciting.. just about Mabi. My sister paid med for her part in the cost of games I got.. and we had spaghetti for dinner.. yumm. :D I had this new yogurt thing called 'Yo Crunch'. It was strawberry and banana with a bunch of little granola pieces in.. really good if you ask me. I think my dad is gonna buy me more for other days. I haven't gotten to talk to the one person who can brighten up my day yet.. but I will later. Today was basically a Mabi day.. and nothing too big went on in my house today.

However, I am still waiting on my blood work from the doctor. He hasn't called yet so that must mean that it hasn't come in yet and I still don't know whats wrong with me. I know I'm sick, but that tells me nothing at all.. the doctor and my family is really concerned when I say I feel so dizzy that I might faint.. but nothing has come back yet for us to be positive of anything. Today is Monday, so I think that it might because the doctors office is really busy that I haven't gotten any results back today.. hopefully tomorrow.. and hopefully its nothing too serious.